Posts by Kat

Jealousy

Posted by on Sep 1, 2016 in Self-Help | 1 comment

As IG is flooded with pics of perfectly positioned poses, it seems like everyone and their mother is a superstar yogi. I am not one of those people.

I am someone who likes the feeling of stretching and someone who appreciates reminders of awareness and deep breathing.

I’m also someone who has more or less sat in admiration of yogis for years, but never taken on a consistent practice myself.

Recently though, I’ve made some regular attendance in a flow class and am already tuning into the myriad of lessons that translate from on to off the mat.

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Especially as social media has us injecting the highlight reels of our peers into the monotonous moments of our daily lives, it’s the unfortunate truth that comparative internal dialogue is commonplace in our culture. “Look at them they are so much more talented, more fit; smarter; better looking; more accomplished; happier; cooler; more confident; more put together; they have more friends than I do…” It seems to be automatic in our society that we size ourselves up against each other, and even to ourselves – comparing our current state to what we perceive was a better version. “I used to be so happy; so successful; so fit; so outgoing; so vibrant; so lean; I used to have everything together.”

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In the studio however, we learn that there is no space for this chatter. Setting up for a pose, though we may be surrounded by a flock of more seasoned yogis, all perched steady in their crows and their cranes, it does us no benefit to become distracted by our neighbors.

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Intimidation or ego inflation, it will not serve to make comparisons in either direction. What kind of information are you really gathering when the variables are so vast that there could never be a true assessment anyway?

“Wow, they hold their crane pose for a full minute longer than I can!” Well, they may have a particular anatomical advantage that makes this easier to achieve.

“I’m so much more flexible than them!” Well, they may be coming back from an injury. Or, “I’m so much stronger than they are!” Well, they may actually have 10 years experience, but it’s not evident right now because they’ve already done 3 other classes today and are consequently fatigued.

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What we learn in the studio is that, like in life, in order to maintain balance, in order to build strength, one cannot become distracted.

If we peek at a neighbor or out the window or get taken by a thought, we’ll surely fall.

IN ORDER TO MAINTAIN BALANCE AND BUILD STRENGTH, the extent of the occupation is… to is focus on the breath, check in with alignment, recall the intention, and relax to deepen.

 

And when there is pain on the path…

Enjoy the challenge of the work.

Listen to the body.

Trust in the wisdom of your being.

 

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Food Freedom

Posted by on Aug 10, 2016 in Nutrition | 2 comments

 

It was years that i searched for a truly healthy, sustainable diet. And it was years that I suffered.
I came to low fat raw veganism desperate for a more peaceful relationship with food. Now it is 7.5 years later and i continue to feel grateful for its influence in my life.

 

kat-green-raw-vegan-girlSure, food is not 100% of what it takes to be healthy, but it is certainly a part of it.

If we can take care of this basic need we can alleviate significant stress and free up energy for other mental, emotional, physical and spiritual endeavors. can you imagine what you might do if food became a non-issue in your life?

I’ve put together multiple recipe books to answer the some very common questions. “Just fruits and veggies, what the heck do you eat? doesn’t that get boring?”

I’d love for others to know it is possible – to have meals that are free of guilt and free of addictive qualities; to nourish the body without compromising taste; and to have more ease with their diet.

 

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Future Unknowns

Posted by on Jun 14, 2016 in Self-Help | 0 comments

With an unknown future it’s easy to get caught in complaint.

“Grr… i’m frustrated because i just don’t know…
• What is my career going to be?
• When is the construction on our house going to be complete?
• Am i going to have children?
• Will i find a life partner? where?
• Am i going to find suitable land to purchase?
• What am i going to do when i retire?
• Who will my community be when i move?
• Will this project be successful?
• Which school is going to accept my application?
• When will my immigration visa process be complete?
• Am i going to ever fully recover from this illness?
• When will i be financially independent?
• Will i find my passion? when?”

The thought is that, “I don’t know BLANK. I just don’t know and i want to know and if i only had the answer it would make this moment better.”

But, is there ever pause to appreciate the gift that is the mystery? Aside from the thrilling magic of it all, on a practical level, it’s actually quite helpful to not know one’s future. the truth is, whatever’s next in the timeline is yet to be revealed simply because there is nothing to do about it now.

Think about if you really did know what the future held — you knew all the todos and happenings lined up for your life — it would be entirely too much!

Imagine this…
You open your inbox and see there are three new messages.

• One is from your friend who is asking a question and would like an answer by Tuesday.
• The next is from your colleague who’d like more information on something. he is needing a response by Wednesday.
• The last is from your sister. She is looking for your opinion and is requesting to hear back from you by Thursday.

A typical reaction would be small-scale overwhelm. “Woah, woah, woah. alright, this is a little too much to handle all at once. I’ve got to prioritize here. I’m not going to touch the Thursday deadline message, or even the Wednesday one right now. I’m just going to focus my efforts on the Tuesday one. I’ll do what I need to do to finish that right now. Really, I almost wish I didn’t know about those other two because having them in the back of my mind is just distracting… It would be a lot easier if they’d only appear in my inbox when they were relevant – the current format is just cluttering my mailbox.

It may seem as though the guessing you’re doing about your future is distracting enough right now — being granted a guaranteed outline of what’s to come might sound like a welcomed reprieve. However, in reality this wouldn’t be so. The fantastical thoughts you have about the future, though endless in their variety, all remain ethereal. Because you really don’t know how things will play out, these ideas are kept as equally possible as impossible. They drift as thoughts with little substance. conversely, if you were granted the knowledge of all your assured future happenings, though it would be finite, those notions would hold a different constitution. Their certainty would give them weight; and their details, texture. All these intricacies would muddle the mind as they’re be more details than one could know what to do with.

Imagine this…
You settle into the car for a week long road trip and switch on the navigational system. today you are heading to a friend’s new house located in a part of town you’ve never visited. you merge onto the highway and begin the cruise. the sky is cloudy, traffic is steady and as you make your way out of familiar territory you listen up for the nav’s next aural instruction. a number of exit signs pass you by and curiosity begins to grow. “where am i going?” finally the nav system pipes up.

▸ “Take exit 429 on the right.”
   “Great, thank you.”

▸ “Then, turn left onto woodlawn and follow it for 5 miles. Next, make a left onto church street. Stay on it for 0.7 miles, then, turn right onto brant. Follow brant for 1.2 miles. Make a right onto university…”
   Cars wiz past and you’re having trouble making your way across the highway lanes in order to get off at the 429 exit.

▸ “Keep on university for 0.8 miles. make a left onto king street. keep right…
   A motorcycle races out of your blindspot, swerving in-between you and another vehicle.

▸ “In 24 miles take a right onto cherry st. continue for a mile…”
   There is a transport truck in the next lane who is getting a little too close for comfort.

▸ “In 44 miles… in 52 miles… in 58 miles…”

You haven’t yet been able to reach your first exit and the nav system continues to distract you with instruction. You become agitated. “No no no! Why is this device revealing directions that are multiple steps ahead of my current location? I can’t act on those until i arrive there anyway. I need only to focus on what is taking place right now. Knowing the details about these future steps is not only unnecessary, but confusing – all it does is divert my attention from what i need to do to take care of myself in this moment.”

The universe’s current system is set up in your favor. With pleasure or pain, not being granted the full knowledge of what lies ahead is always in your best interest.

Coming upon that panoramic view of the nature reserve is more beautiful if you don’t see it in the guide book first. The punchline in that movie is funnier if you don’t hear it in the trailer first.

There have been times in my life, I’ll poetically name as “shit storms.” In retrospect i am glad to have not known of their existence on my horizon. If i had known that much pain and confusion and anxiety were around the corner, that suffering would’ve only leaked into the present in the form of fretful anticipation. It would have taken away from the enjoyment and education I was receiving during those times leading up to the storm. There was nothing more for me to be doing during those times than what i was already doing by being present to the feelings and teachings of my day-to-day. Really there is no sidestepping the future, so there is no useful application of it’s whatabouts.

 

Similarly…
I can recall a number of instances as a child where my doctors required me to take a flu shot. The times where i was told in advance, I would only agonize about the upcoming clinic visit, Friday at 4pm. The two seconds of pain had swollen into a prior week’s worth of anticipation. The times i was told the day of, I would again allow the experience to swell. The many hours leading up to it I’d be walking around with a visceral chagrin.

In both cases, the mere two seconds of actual physical pain had dilated in the shadow cast by the unnecessary introduction of their future “knownness.” Funny to me because if i had the chance to experience the feeling of the injection in isolation — say, if i had happened upon a sensation akin to that of a needle prick, and in a scenario where i could have avoided the anticipation of it (if i was bit by a bug for instance, or if i had brushed past a spiky tree during a nature walk) — it would likely go unnoticed. In the least, it would be much easier to handle.

It is a gift not to have all of the answers in this moment – to have the space of now kept as clutter-free as one can allow.

Ultimately, not being distracted by the future’s details will mean more ease in in experiencing whatever is currently happening around & within oneself. The perfection is that – what you are experiencing right now is your personalized primer for what is to come. So, the best thing you can do to prepare for the future is to fully immerse yourself in the training that is this moment.

The best thing you can do is trust that you always have sufficient information. You’ll always know just enough to make the next step.
• I know it’s not daytime but your vehicle’s headlights will show you just enough of your surrounding area to maintain your safety, to keep you going. (really, if you had the whole road in illumination, it’d be superfluous. you’d still only be able to drive it one meter at a time!)
• I know you don’t have the whole loaf, but follow the bread crumbs. each bite will be satisfaction enough until the next one. (really, even if you had the whole loaf, you’d only be able to eat it one bite at a time anyway!)

 

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Taking Things Personally

Posted by on Jun 12, 2016 in Self-Help | 0 comments

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Imagine that you are taking a walk in the city and are approached by a man. he looks worn out, overrun by life. You can sense by his tattered clothing and forever furrowed brow that he’s faced significant hardship in his time. Spying the makeshift cardboard bed and the mess of empty bottles on the nearby stoop, you suspect that the street has become his home and drinking & drugs, his occupation. your nose is distracted by whiffs of urine.

The man begins to approach you. His eyes twitchy and his breath sodden with alcohol, he gets right up in your face. Enraged, he begins to spew gibberish. It’s meaning is incomprehensible, it’s content predominately profanity. Among the slurs, “You’re a f**king unworthy piece of s**t!”

…You continue walking.

For you this interaction might have been a little off putting, it might have been unpleasant, sure – but would you have taken this interaction personally? Would you have let this man’s words damage your self-worth?

Likely not. The typical reaction would involve some form of, “Awe he’s just drunk. He’s just high on chemicals, he’s in pain and he’s blabbering. There is clearly a lot going on in his world. (Though his words were aimed in my direction, they have nothing to do with me.)” The typical response would be to brush it off. This other person would have no power over the opinion you have of yourself.

This is a situation where it is easy to recognize that someone else’s words have nothing to do with you. The mind immediately jumps to explanations and the heart to compassion. “He’s clearly having a tough time. maybe he’s also hungry, tired, cold, lonely, desperate… There is a lot of pain and toxicity present for this human being.” – Speculations that aren’t about condoning or condemning this other person’s behavior, but rather, look to understand it.

In this situation we respond with first, Step 0: NOT taking another’s words personally. Then, Step 1: finding possible reasons for their behavior. And finally, Step 2: tapping into empathy for their condition.

So why do we respond this way in one scenario, but not in another?

For instance, would that be your default response to an unpleasant interaction you had with a friend? Likely not. With those who we see on a more regular basis, like our family members, colleagues, roommates etc., it is easy to loose perspective – we can forget that they have their own versions of this man’s alcohol & drugs that get in the way of their authentic communication. Like the man on the street, they too carry their share of influences that determine how they interact with the world. They carry…

• Physical toxins (from their stress, their environment or their addiction to substances like processed food, cigarettes, pharmaceuticals, alcohol etc.) all which affect them on a chemical level
• Mental suffering, the result of many distracting thoughts, enforced through years of social conditioning
• Emotional pain from unhealed past traumas
• Physical distress (like fatigue, constipation, hunger, disease etc.)

These factors filter both how they perceive their inner and outer world and how their self gets expressed.

The only difference between the stranger on the sidewalk and those whose names you know, is the visibility of their struggles.

WHY YOU DON’T WANT TO BE TAKING THINGS PERSONALLY:

It is a no-win situation.
1. You give your power away to another person and in turn make yourself a victim
2. You distance yourself from others through resentment
3. and then burden others with the responsibility of the impossible job of making you feel a certain way
4. You are then so distracted by your own insecurities that you aren’t available for authentic connection with others, to facilitate your own growth, or to help anyone else with their affairs.

The secret here is that you don’t need to wait for someone to reveal the details of their suffering. You can make the assumption that it is always what is at the root of their unsavoriness. With this approach, you free yourself.

So, next time you catch yourself reacting to the actions and opinions of another, think about the man on the street. Although you might be the subject of their outburst, don’t get caught in the trap of taking it personally. Recognize it as a manifestation of their own issues and go from there.

 

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Dietism

Posted by on Jun 2, 2016 in Nutrition, Thoughts | 0 comments

“Are you an omnivore/locavore/paleo/vegetarian/vegan/raw vegan?” There are a million ways we label ourselves and get labeled by others because of our food choices. It is this labeling that has lead to much of the tension that I’ve witnessed in my community.

I’m not 100% certain that this would qualify as oppression and for the record I certainly don’t want to give it as much weight as something like racism or sexism or adultism. I’m posting out of curiosity of other’s opinions; and also to bring light to something that has been present in my life, perhaps it’s present in yours as well?

For me, this issue has a history as far back as grade school (back before being vegetarian was considered trendy), where, because of my decision to abstain form meat, I became the subject of bullying. The following are thoughts coming from my experience as a 21yr long vegetarian, 8yr vegan and 7yr raw vegan.

 

WHY “DIETISM” MIGHT FALL UNDER OPPRESSION

• There are those who are in power → Omnivores have the majority.
I have witnessed and been subject to peer pressure from those who’d like me to eat differently.

• There are stereotypes → “All vegans are frail; all vegans are judging you; all vegans are dirty hippies; all vegans are loud activists etc.”

 

BEING ON THE RECEIVING END OF OPPRESSION AS A VEGAN

• Continually being tasked with the job of educating others… “Yes you can actually get protein from plants.” This comes in response to an institutionalized oppression → the way the public is taught something as basic as the food pyramid does not leave room for alternative choices.

• Compliments are qualified… “He’s pretty strong for a vegetarian.”

• While dining with others who are making different food choices, it’s often the case that their food insecurities come up. They project that I’m judging them. I frequently hear, “I really don’t eat that much meat, just today…” Or, “…I tried being vegan once…” Or, they make a self-deprecating comment about their plate of fast food. “You are being so healthy eating that salad.”  The subtext being, “You are judging me for eating a burger, I’m gonna make you the weird one first.”  (I’m just genuinely surprised how often some reference to my diet comes up when I don’t say a word.)

• There is a pressure to represent the best version of health. I acknowledge that I may be the only vegan you meet. This pressure is the result of non-vegans continually taking almost any issue a vegan has and attributing it to their diet, a conclusion that would not have been immediately made for an omnivore. Any health problem becomes a subtle argument against veganism. “He is low in B12, it must be because he is vegan.” When in reality ~40% of Americans are B12 deficient, and not that many people are vegan.  Observations continue – “her skin doesn’t look good; he is not muscular enough etc… It’s because they aren’t eating enough meat.”  Like any minority, it’s a lot of pressure to think that you are representing all of your people. One vegan in a sea of omnivores at a backyard BBQ is likely going to feel something to this effect. Imagine you, as a human being, going to another planet. If you’re going to be all those aliens know of the human race, you might feel a pressure to be on your best behavior.

• There is embarrassment around eating at other’s houses as it often causes inconvenience for a host. (It has gotten a lot better over the years, but a lack of vegetarian choices is built into the standard North American diet.)

• Being bullied in subtle or explicit ways. Being at the butt and of jokes.

• Lack of understanding. “Yeah I know I didn’t order a veggie pizza for the group, but you can just take the pepperonis off.”

• Seeing a diet choice as one clearly defined thing that’s been solidified and isn’t leaving room for personal choices. “She couldn’t be vegan, she is wearing leather shoes.” Putting another person into a box of which of which you are designing the perameters.

 

INTERNALIZED “DIETISM”

• Many really like being a part of a group, so much so that they wholeheartedly take, vegansim for example, on as their identity. It dominates the foreground of the expression of themselves; it becomes a community they seek out as to reinforce their persona; and it becomes a lens through which they view the world. (I believe a part of what paves this path is how often one is continually receiving labels from the outside. Being put in the same box time and time again, the subject grows to see that box as their home.)

• Within one group of eaters, let’s say vegan, I’ve observed that when members of the group make choices to try something different, and reintroduce eggs for example, there are repercussions. They are often harshly judged and even shunned from the group. It is now the vegans who have learned to occupy the role of their oppressor. They act out the ways they’ve have been oppressed on others within their group, or against others in another diet minority group. Members of the group also work to reinforce stereotypes they’ve come to believe. “If all vegans are dirty hippies, let’s judge her for wearing make-up and dressing preppy.”

• I’ve witnessed over the years that diet groups have become more and more fragmented. Where it used to be just omnivore or vegetarian, it’s now broken down into pescaterian, lacto-ovo-vegetarian, paleo, plant-based, whole-food focused, locavore, beegan, vegan, high carb vegan, raw vegan, low fat raw vegan, fruitarian, raw till 4pm vegan etc. Choice is great and labels can certainly be helpful in a restaurant; but when walls go up simply to give individuals something to push up against, no-one wins. Why is this important? Because it keeps our focus on the space between, so much so that we loose sight of what is there holding us together. As long as we stay divided we stay distracted. As long as we as we seek separateness, we sacrifice strength.

 

OVERALL

• I’ve seen that diet is a particularly charged subject for everyone, sometimes to the intensity of religion or politics.

• Many of the pieces around oppression – skin color, first language, ethnic background, country of origin, and biological gender stay with us our whole lives. Food does as well, and so the stories around it become quite involved and engrained. We don’t have much freedom over if we eat, the one thing we do have some freedom around is what we eat. Perhaps that’s why this choice is such a point of sensitivity.

 

TO THE READER

• In your opinion, would this fall under oppression?

• Have you experienced, let’s call it, “dietism”?

 

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DIETISM, A RESPONSE…

[I received many comments on this post, some of which I hope to address below. One @Friend1 in particular found herself quite triggered by this comparison. A long time vegetarian herself, she has managed to make do regardless of her food environment (coming up with creative solutions like eating chips in cranberry sauce at Thanksgiving!) She acknowledged that remarks have been made about her diet, but doesn’t report on it having a negative affect.]

Wow, thank you so much for sharing your input! I so value friends I can talk openly with and who can be fellow travelers on my thought explorations such as this one.

I totally hear you @Friend1, and appreciate your input. I can see how it wouldn’t qualify as oppression in the eyes of some, that’s why I posed it as a question (an invitation for discussion really), rather than a fact.

I by no means believe that even the possibility of the existence of dietism holds close to the same weight as something like racism or sexism. My preface was an attempt to be clear on that and to be sensitive & respectful to these more severe forms of oppression. I apologize if my emphasis on the space between was not strong enough.
Oppression is certainly an edgy topic and one that i only recently started to investigate more thoroughly. A curiosity sparked in me by a class I’m taking, in which we examined its definition. I wanted to extract the components of it and see where else it may be applicable in an effort to expose some possibly hidden ways we, as humans are holding each other back – to bring awareness to some of the barriers that are in the way of a truly loving connection between groups of difference.

One definition that was shared: “oppression = prejudice + power”. Other definitions I’ve read around the internet are pretty much variations of: “the exercise of power in a cruel manner.”

What I want to bring attention to firstly is that something as seemingly subtle as teasing might be received as cruel. Secondly, that any group who holds the majority holds a type of power – a privilege worth acknowledging. With a sense of being among the majority one feels safe and therefore free to act in a provocative manor with confidence of no repercussion. The members of this group are also not challenged to explore their own naiveness because they all share the same blindspots. They unconsciously work to reinforce the established perspective, a natural mechanism of group self-preservation.

I commend the creativity of your Thanksgiving “salsa” @Friend1 ? I’m glad to hear you didn’t find the remarks bothersome. Think though, that there were remarks/laughing in the first place, says something. That there is a convention in which the teasing of a minority is accepted, to me, that would qualify as oppression on a small-scale. I recognize that whether a remark is considered cruel is subjective. I have, in my circles heard and read of more overt cruelty directed at someone because of their food choices, perhaps this has not been a part of your world.

I can relate though with not feeling directly affected by something others feel as an oppressive force. for instance, I understand the concepts of sexism and see others who are quite affected by it. I however, have never personally felt the target of overt sexism, definitely not in a way where I have felt oppressed or endured a powerful suffering. However, just because I haven’t experienced it, doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist in the world.

I also don’t believe acts of oppression need to be dramatic to have an affect. I see the way men are suppressed and it can be quite subtle – in the form of a passive comment, “suck it up, be a man.” We all know what that means. It embeds stoicism into the definition of that gender. The translation: “because you have a penis, if you cry, you wont be accepted.” It seems like a harmless comment, but what is the affect? > Half of our population surprising their emotions. Their resentment, anger, insecurity, confusion, build until it spills over into other relationships. The oppressed man then becomes the oppressor and acts out against his child; against females; against other races etc. He is desperate to regain power and unconsciously finds it at the expense of others. The cycle perpetuates.

I acknowledge my privilege as a white, North American, working class, educated, “religionless”, english-speaking, female and see how that has both afforded me opportunity and also kept me naive. This is likely why I was more sensitive to aforementioned expressions of dietism – because i was sheltered from more severe forms of oppression. Someone who had to endure the cruelty of unprovoked physical abuse, unwarranted arrests, denial/lack of government assistance for instance, would not pick up a rude comment about their hummus, as even a blimp on their radar.

My post was never about trivializing these atrocities. Rather, it was to highlight how the relative weight of dietism, though may be small, is not inconsequential.

The ways we interact with each other through micro-aggressions (like teasing and making uneducated comments) may seem insignificant, but, like seeds planted, if left unattended, they’ll grow; like one straw after another, eventually they’ll break through the camel’s back. And it is the small size, the subtleness of these aggressions, that are what make them so dangerous. They aren’t seen as aggressive enough to warrant attention and so they continue.

I really liked what you said @Friend2, “tolerating being ignored/discredited on one level gives people the room for ignorance to grow, because their ignorance is never questioned. … and it then grows to the proportions mentioned in your first paragraph.”
When looking at the atrocious ways humans have demonstrated oppression through racism and sexism for example, we can ask, where did this stem from? – It came from lack of awareness and lack of education. These are the same origins I am proposing exist at the root of dietism. My initial inquiry points to the next question: What if we could uncover the areas we still remain unaware and uneducated as a population and address them? How much future suffering might be alleviated? What if we could’ve made this possible before genocide and slavery came to be?  Why should an opinion or exchange have to escalate to war to be addressed?

My hope is that by being overly sensitive we can nip more potential violence in the bud.

I’m sorry @Friend1 that you are saddened by this whole comparison. my goal was to illuminate blind spots, not to cast a shadow over the suffering of another.

I so appreciate your participation and for helping me better understand this complex topic. It sounds like what we can all connect on, is that what we would like is to see, is a world more free from cruelty. I think that comes with maintaining an open mind and continuing an open dialogue. So, thank you for being a part of that dialogue.

 

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Trekking

Posted by on May 29, 2016 in Travel | 0 comments

I could have never known back in march 2o11 that I was setting out on a travel journey of this magnitude. 5yrs and 133 beds later and i’m somehow still trekking.

I encourage everyone to get out and globetrot. Time away from where one is raised is really invaluable. It offers so many new perspectives and opportunities for real learning.

One of the biggest changes i’ve adopted has been, becoming more comfortable with “going with the flow.” Most of the traveling I had done as a child was taking family trips that were extensively planned out. My daily life then was also fully scheduled with school activities during the year and camp during the summer. I remember being in high-school and talking to one of my teachers about the traveling he’d done in his youth. He spoke about a 5 year journey around the globe, how none of it was planned, how it all just unfolded as as he went. i was baffled… No plans!? Where would one sleep, how would they prepare, what would they do with their day? Clearly, this way of operating lived far outside the comfort zone of my consciousness.

And then life happened. I encountered a number of circumstances, ones that I couldn’t have planned for. a test to my paradigms, what was being revealed was how tightly I was clinging to my illusions of safety & security; what began showing itself were my many hidden fears.

Survival meant moving from attachment to acceptance. It meant developing more and more understanding of the fluid nature of this reality. It meant seeing that everything is temporary and that nothing is comple–  ; )

 

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Non-Attachment

Posted by on May 13, 2016 in Self-Help, Thoughts | 1 comment

I often overhear prideful words on the subject of non-attachment.

My self-proclaimed hippy friend recently said aloud, “gross, look at that girl with the expensive designer bag. I’m not pretentious like that. I don’t care about money. I don’t shop in those high-end stores, I shop in used clothing stores.”  What she was attempting to share about was her freedom from an attachment to money, however what i heard was an example incomplete.

If one truly didn’t care about money, yes, they might shop at an inexpensive vintage store, but they also wouldn’t blink an eye over spending a larger sum of money on an item that they liked from a more expensive store. True non-attachment to money comes by maintaining an indifference to a cost – a purchase is based solely on the desire for the good or service.

In another case, a person with more substantial wealth may have attachments to their own idea of money. Though it appears that they are comfortable spending any amount on a whim, when it comes to the sale rack, something changes for them. They’ve become averse to buying the discounted item because it’s newly designated monetary value has now deemed it “less than.”

Freedom from this internal evaluative dialogue would be buying the vintage tee because it’s comfy and the diamonds because of their sparkle. That is living beyond the designated value of money and “not caring about money”

There are many sides to non-attachment. When you say you don’t care about one side, check yourself. Is it possible there is an opposing side… Maybe one that you weren’t aware of, one that you are unknowingly clinging to? Check yourself. Are you behaving self-righteously? Are you holding yourself up by the judgements you have of others?

When I hear, “I don’t care what people say about me. They can put me down all they want, I don’t care.” I’m curious to question, “Do you truly not care what people say? Check yourself. How do you react when you are complemented?” If you really didn’t care what people said you’d give this positive feedback the same zero weight as you did the negative. Ask yourself, is it that you hear others’ words, acknowledge any positive intention and then allow them to roll right off your back; or, is it that these affirmations funnel into a reservoir of pride? Do they feed an identity to which you feel attached?

When i hear, “I don’t like that – insert mainstream pop song title here -,” I want to inquire. “Is it that you actually don’t enjoy this beat, or is it just that you don’t enjoy the idea of yourself liking the song?”

Is there an image of yourself that you are too attached to to challenge?

Maybe one time, you can let yourself dance along, in public, even though it may be incongruent with the image you have of yourself.

Maybe you can release yourself, with the realization that these are innocent notes on a page, simple sound waves, valueless vibrations, that aren’t born with any inherent meaning… Maybe you can release yourself with the realization that you too are as simple and innocent. That you too have no fixed form or identity.


“I’m not vain and attached to my appearances. I don’t take photos of myself, like these other people posting selfies all the time.” Whether an individual takes one picture of themselves or 20; whether it ends up as their facebook profile pic or on a billboard; the only relevant factor is their relationship to that picture.

The amount of attention a photo receives also doesn’t reflect the humbleness of its subject. The woman next door might have an IG account with 10 followers and she could be completely consumed with her image; believing that it is the whole representation of herself. And there could be a famous runway model, with plenty of photoshoots under her belt, who is down-to-earth with few delusions about her image.

I realized a couple years ago that I was trying to fit a particular image I had of myself. In the past I’ve had times where I’ve had an aversion to being photographed – I thought of getting one’s picture taken as act of ego. I saw it as being prideful and vain. I valued humility and thought by refraining from photos I would be supporting the growth of this character trait.

The catch here was, I was caught up trying to maintain a self-image of modesty. This subconscious preoccupation kept me from being genuinely present – from simply being a part of a photograph because it was fun; from posting a picture of myself because it represented an enjoyable time; from sharing a photo of a cheesy grin because I think the world could use more smiles.

It’s sneaky, but this pursuit of the ego-free identity, actually feeds the ego!

To really be free from this trap, to really be humble, is not to not take selfies. it is to take selfies but without attachment to them. It is not to hide from a lens, but to examine what comes up in oneself when in the presence of one.

It is to have photos in one’s life, to have the presence of form, without having it be the definition of one’s being. Ceci n’est pas Kat Green.

 

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Kindness

Posted by on May 5, 2016 in Self-Help, Thoughts | 0 comments

I have never regretted being kind.

To hold kindness as a practice important as any other means being kind, not just when it’s convenient; not just when you are with your friends; not just when things are going your way; not just when you feel well; and not just to people’s faces. It is about being kind to the irrational driver who cut you off; the dog that won’t stop barking; the store clerk who is being short with you; the mosquito buzzing in your ear; the late bus driver who messed up your plans; the family member who won’t change; the you who dropped the ball with your diet this week.

Being kind in your heart is not about the way you handle the jerks that come your way; being kind in your heart is about seeing all beings with enough understanding and compassion so that you aren’t seeing anyone as a jerk… You aren’t seeing a jackass, you are seeing an individual who is in pain; you aren’t seeing an idiot, you are seeing someone who is confused; you aren’t seeing an asshole, you are seeing someone who is suffering.

This way of being is really about shedding the lenses we’ve come to adopt – the lenses of judgement, fear, expectation and resentment through which we see the world. It is about getting back to an eye that is clear, an eye that is pure love… an I that is one with all.

In this space we find a reservoir of patience and understanding. And in this space, kindness flows.
.pema-chodron

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Judgement

Posted by on Apr 5, 2016 in Thoughts | 0 comments

When a person speaks in judgement of others (of their physique, of their ability, of their choices etc.), they reveal their hand. They display to the world their own deepest insecurities.

 

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Diets that Stick

Posted by on Mar 26, 2016 in Nutrition | 0 comments

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I love that eating healthy doesn’t have to be a compromise! The number one most important thing to me with whatever diet one chooses is sustainability – for the planet, for the animals and for oneself. Sure many diets “work” for a period of time, but at some point there is a falling off of the wagon – often because there is lack of enjoyment in the designated meals or because one has become undernourished and is simply hungry! What this reveals is evidence of a diet that is unsustainable.

With the low fat raw vegan approach I never feel as though I’m missing out. I eat to my mouth and body’s content and always feel satisfied. To me, that is the only model of sustainability.

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Inner & Outer

Posted by on Feb 23, 2016 in Self-Help, Thoughts | 0 comments

Your body is a reflection of your choices.

Your life is a reflection of your thoughts.

Your relationships are a reflection of your self.

 

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Lack of Support

Posted by on Sep 8, 2015 in Self-Help | 0 comments

We always have what we need in life.

Though it may not be what we want, we will always have exactly what we need.

This is a good reminder during times of despair.

When you’re feeling weak and dizzy in a desperate search for some assistance that you aren’t able to find, know that even in these stressful situations – though it may not be clear –

you are being supported with exactly what you need.

Stop looking down at your feet, asking for sturdier shoes… Look up and see your wings.

 

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